Archive - Feelings Not Aside

Lessons from the lake

the summer that changed everything

Jul 18 •

Kayti Christian

what if it all turns out okay?

things I tell myself in the middle of the night

Jul 11 •

Kayti Christian

June 2024

when sadness (still) lingers

and lingers and lingers

Jun 20 •

Kayti Christian

we took a drive that ended with a lake in hopes to heal something, a crack perhaps that can’t be seen or named but leaves its mark anyway.

Jun 12 •

Kayti Christian

nostalgia (for everything not trending)

I spent the weekend on the lake with my family.

Jun 5 •

Kayti Christian

May 2024

I promise it gets better

We were supposed to be buying groceries the day you missed the exit, turning south instead of north on the freeway. It almost seemed like an accident…

May 23 •

Kayti Christian

Hi friends, I hope you all are well. So much has happened in the past few weeks—I went to Turkey and Morocco and then I got covid and was jet lagged and…

May 13 •

Kayti Christian

April 2024

how to envy well

Perhaps the secret isn’t to rid my life of envy but to choose what and how I envy instead. What would it mean to envy the good, the beautiful, the…

Apr 12 •

Kayti Christian

In search of heat

In the mountains where I spend my childhood, spring is never warm. The muddy soil is dotted with snow patches, and icicles cling to gutters late into…

Apr 5 •

Kayti Christian

February 2024

things i want to say but don't

The sun was always warm in the morning, the sheets soft. We found each other in the newness of another day and chose to wake up and try again.

Feb 29 •

Kayti Christian

a woman scorned

I am thirteen when my mother picks up an artichoke and throws it at the wall. It is half-eaten, the fuzzy heart soft and exposed. She picks it up off…

Feb 26 •

Kayti Christian

January 2024

a soft place to land

I wrote an entire essay about paint and then deleted it. In all the words on the page, I couldn’t find the point, couldn’t figure out what I was trying…

Jan 31 •

Kayti Christian

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